I’m sorry, I forgot you were here. You’re like the best friend that I need to tell my secrets to. That best friend that I don’t really have anymore. But then… I’d never tell all of my secrets to someone who’s human anyway. You’re much more reliable than anyone I’ve ever met anyway. The precious to my Gollum.
That’s why I’m begging for your forgiveness.
You were and are the only one who could wrap your arms around me; blanket me snugly.
You were and are the only one who I’d let see me cry, let alone wipe my tear; shroud me from sorrow.
you were and are the only one who’d let me live in bliss and hide from the light; obscure me in darkness.
you were and are the only one… and I forgot you were here.
I can only beg for your forgiveness… because I need you.
I need you so that I can not need you. So that I can forget about you. So that until I need you again I can be a bearer of secrets. Secrets that I hide even from myself.
Now that I am through with you, releasing my pain unto you I’ll set you aside again. To be forgotten again, and forsaken again.
Amber is my favorite color! :)
I have been cheered immensely on my trip into NYC!
I am surrounded by people, friends and i am still lonely. I hate this feeling.